Mak

Done with You I don't mind you fucking up my life with your doings. But just because I let you do the shit you do doesn't mean I'm not taking notes on everything you've done because sooner or later the receipts will be leaked. So keep on doing the shit you're doing and see how far you get in life after you've had your fun. I know for a fact once I leak that shit I'll be laughing while you're crying and trying to get in touch with me and I'll be nowhere near you! You kept on saying this is what you like doing so I'll just keep letting you do what you like. I'm not going to stop you from being you. I wanna see the real you and not something you're not. I wanna see the devil that you really are so when the time comes I can end your shit and go bout my life like nothing ever happened other than ruining your life! Keep it up and shut the fuck up. Don't be mad at me for the issues you keep creating on the spot just for attention and sympath...

Fuck You Honestly what more can I say? I'm sorry you thought I was kind and nice but in reality, I'm not. I simply mind my business and only respond if it's worth my time. So you saying I'm ignoring you and being disrespectful is kind of out of pocket when you simply just didn't catch my interest. So with that being said stop blowing up my phone, and get a fucking life because I promise you, you don't want me to expose your shit and leak your address. Some of you just need to understand I really don't care as to what you say or do to me but I will remember it and deal with it in my own way with or without your approval. So if your shit gets hacked, leaked, exposed, or fucked basically that's out of my jurisdiction because I told you not to fuck with me and I'm not going to repeat myself just to prove a point. I'll have my point proven within the next day or within a few days depending on the schedule and how upset I am. I'm not the type to le...

Never Meant for This to Happen I swear it gets worse by the day knowing this life I'm living is a lie and nobody even knows it. I can never come to reality as to what I want in my life and who I want in my life. I like being me and doing what I like but when it comes to talking to those who are close to me I freeze up on topics such as seeing someone or even mentioning someone to them. I guess there's just too much stress and anxiety in my life right now for me to accept the fact that I like what I like and can't help it. I don't know why but I feel comfortable with doing the things that I'm doing it's just I know people around me are going to have a problem with it and I don't think I'm ready for them to leave my life over something that should be normal but apparently isn't right now. Maybe if I just numb all the thoughts and feelings things will be okay but then I'll never understand how to truly feel about people or certain things that happen...

I Stopped Caring I swear it feels like no matter who I talk to or hang out with something fucked up always happens. I don't know if it's because I'm speaking facts and no longer sugar coating shit or what. But it's like people are staying and going but I wish they would just pick one and stay with that choice. Tired of meeting people from my past! Why are you coming back like I owe you validation or some shit? I told you how I felt and what it was I was thinking about and you chose to leave so why are you coming back like I've changed my mind from my previous statement? That's not how I work/do things. I'm sorry but I wasn't raised on to say apologies or anything dealing with taking shit back on what I said. That's why it takes me forever to say what's on my mind because I know if I say the shit that's on my mind theirs no turning back. So I tend to just sit back and watch while processing everything that's happening instead of just sayin...

Fuck the System This post is about to be offensive to anyone that's a racist or doesn't approve of BLACK LIVES MATTER & think COP/PIGS can get AWAY WITH MURDER. So with that being said, I suggest you get off my site. I'm going to go ahead and start with the people that think killing / murdering an innocent black man over a forged check is okay and don't care to see any kind of problem with that. Because it kind of makes me wonder if you have a mental illness or if you just don't care about people unless they're matching with your "COLOR" of race.  You dumb fucking pieces of shit are "SUPPOSED" to make communities we live in "SAFE" but instead you make it feel like we're your prisoners. Can you see and comprehend the problem that I have with this shit or are you so one-sided you only choose to see and hear what you want on your own time? If that's the case let me know so I can get the fuck out of your way so I do...

I Quit For those trying to find my social media accounts don't bother. I deleted all things relating to social media and I also deleted a lot of unnecessary contacts off my phone and only receiving calls from contacts only. I've made the decision to just go and be a ghost online meaning if you Google me there will be zero results of me. I'm tired of always having people telling me what I can and can't post on social media and just other things that are just toxic to me that I can't deal with. I'm removing myself from everyone that I once knew and had some sort of connection with other than family members. I will no longer be answering any calls from people from my past or anyone that's basically not a family member of mine or co-worker. I just really need to distance myself from people and focus on myself and making money right now. I'm getting bored of these games that people keep trying to invite me into and thinking it's going to matter to m...

Why Now? How come I waited so long to finally look deeper into my real parents and my past life to find out that they had people in their lives who were involved with terrorism acts? Now I'm not necessarily saying my birth parents were involved or in on the terror attacks that were happening I'm just saying I think there are clues that people around them and who they were associated with were involved in terror activities. So I guess them putting me in the orphanage was their way of making sure I didn't get involved or have any kind sight of it. Even though sooner or later they'd somehow find out that I'd find out the truth about them and the reason's behind me being put into an orphanage. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel exactly right now considering things like this aren't something you should go about by yourself but knowing me and wanting more info on my birth parents and everything that there was so I could understand myself more w...

Never got the Chance Going off the top here so I apologize if I say something rude or offensive. I've been so fucked up lately thinking about you and I know you don't have any reasons to talk to me but I think I have a lot to say to you even though you think I don't. I understand you see me as someone who keeps everything to himself and doesn't tell anyone his problems but to a select group of people and for that I'm sorry. I wish you could see that isn't how I want it to be. I wish I could just come to you whenever I wanted or whenever you needed and let me explain to you what it is I think or feel and just be honest with you like I've always been. But a lot has changed and it's primarily my fault so I don't expect you to feel any type of shame or guilt because you shouldn't. I feel like so much has happened between us two that I needed to go through a phase where I became a ghost to you and let you move on knowing I'd come back to yo...

Life is a Lie Thought I'd be done with all of this back and forth but it turns out I'll never be over you or it and it's got me thinking that maybe it would just be best if I ended it all. I keep having thoughts about it just being a masquerade and in disguise but in reality, it's just me not wanting to face reality when I know reality isn't what I'm meant for. I only see what I want to see and forget about things that I can't understand or things that I just can't help.  So maybe this decision that I chose for myself is how it's gotta be from now on. I can't keep hurting those I care most about anymore because it puts me in the worst place possible and I'm tired of being in that place. I feel like every move I make is being criticized and talked about in the worst way possible when I'm just doing the best I can. It just kills me knowing those closest to me and share the most memories with would treat it as a joke and tell me to ...

I Don't Want to Fall in Love... Look before you get the wrong idea about this post let me just say I'm not in that state of mind to fall in love with you right now. I just think someone like you should deserve better and I can't give you that right now. So I've decided to take a few steps back to better myself and get my mental health under control before I end up being something that you hate and before you say this is some excuse to not be with you it's not. I just don't want you to think you're wasting your time on me or I'm wasting my time with you because me talking to you makes me really happy and when I'm not talking to you it's almost like hell in a way.  I don't know. Maybe this thing we have is how it's supposed to go but why does it feel so great one moment and confusing the next? Am I doing something wrong or am I just overthinking every outcome when it comes to the decisions I make with you? I feel like me making a mista...

Running Feels like I lost myself in all of this. It's like I'm running to get to someone who I will never catch up to but can see in the distance. It doesn't make any sense why I can see you but I can never reach you. You're the one I want but can't seem to get to and I keep asking myself why that is and I just get blank responses. I feel like it's deja vu and I'm getting sick and tired of being on repeat and not being able to get anywhere. I just want to catch up to you and just talk but you keep running and I can't seem to catch a break with you. It's got me drained but I can't stop now when you're in my sight of vision. I just wish we had a place to go to but instead it's like we're lost and just going in circles like a prison play yard. You keep running from your past thinking things will get better but in reality, things just keep getting worse because you're not acknowledging those problems and it's just a never...