Mak

Just Seeing Where Your Head Is At  How do you manage to be in someone’s business when the only thing that person is doing is finding ways to disappear without a trace?  Chill the fuck out thinking somebody got something to do with you! If anything that person has never even acknowledged your existence. Some people just don’t see others the way others do! Not everyone comes to the realization that others have a meaning/purpose in their life. Some see others as a distraction or simply don’t see them at all. People need to realize not everyone they meet is going to show them the respect they seek or see anything worth noticing. They’ll just walk past you as if you weren’t there. Getting mad for not being recognized/acknowledge is such a childish move. Just make your point and move the fuck along. If they want to acknowledge and take interest they will but don’t force it upon someone. Otherwise they’ll see you as a insecure little bitch and just look at you in disgust. Not everyth...

Why Do I Even Bother at This Point? People stay telling me to be more happy / smile more and all this other shit I don't care to be. It's frustrating for me to be something I'm not / do something I don't understand. Me not smiling and not showing any kind of emotion or reaction and going about my business makes me happy. I get people who don't know me will never understand why I do the thing I do but damn chill telling me to be happy, because I'm perfectly happy I just have a hard time acknowledging it and showing it. Sorry for not being like every other basic living creature on this planet with emotions and knowing which ones to use on cue. Sorry for not being brought into this world with a mom and dad like every other newborn baby. Sorry for having to be put in an orphanage dealing with emotional and physical abuse while also having to fight and survive until I was either old enough to leave or get adopted. Sorry for being so aggressive due to my upbringing. E...

It's Just Easier This Way It's been a few days since I've done anything relating to social media other than delete/deactivate my accounts due to personal and mental health reasons. I'm not mad or upset about anything or towards anyone. I've just been feeling very drained recently trying to do social media and keep up with everyone I care about with everything that's been going on with work, life and moving out it's been really stressful on me and not knowing what to do just made it worse for me. So I thought by me getting rid of my socials would help me get more time on my hands instead of looking at a phone for 15-18 hours a day. I haven't received any text or calls asking if I'm okay/what happened so I guess it was best for me after all. Considering I was right after all, nobody cares and I'm okay with that. Gives me plenty of time to reflect and think about everyone who was just there but didn't really seem to wanna be there I guess. Maybe...

It's Nothing Personal No offense but I don't care to acknowledge people who don't have my number and don't even talk to me in real life but have the audacity to say they know me or tell their friends that I'm cool with them and we should all hang out. I'm sorry but what? If I don't talk to you / make eye contact with you in public that's a dead giveaway that I don't know you. So could you stfu saying I know you because I don't and if I did you would know I don't appreciate people around me telling my business to those I don't know/talk to on a daily basis.  I don't need my private situations getting mixed in with my public situations for everybody to see and judge me on it because it shouldn't have been in the public eye in the first place. That's why I stay off the grid and off social media and never post stuff on my accounts. But that doesn't mean I don't have people to talk to about certain situations that I go thro...

Just Being Honest Like You Told Me to Be People see me thinking I'm always happy or just basically living life but in reality, I'm always thinking of killing myself due to the stress and anxiety that I'm facing but I never talk about it because I hate looking for help/attention/validation from others. For me there's just something about people asking about my personal life and how I'm feeling that's just annoying to me and I'm not trying to be rude or mean about it but damn can you just back off my case and not ask me about shit that has nothing to do with you! If I wanted to talk about something that involved you I would've confronted you about it. But it had nothing to do with you therefore you have zero reasons to be in my business playing detective. I'm not the type to acknowledge someone's question especially when it comes to me having to explain to them what's bothering me considering the answer is always the same ( No longer see the po...

Done with You I don't mind you fucking up my life with your doings. But just because I let you do the shit you do doesn't mean I'm not taking notes on everything you've done because sooner or later the receipts will be leaked. So keep on doing the shit you're doing and see how far you get in life after you've had your fun. I know for a fact once I leak that shit I'll be laughing while you're crying and trying to get in touch with me and I'll be nowhere near you! You kept on saying this is what you like doing so I'll just keep letting you do what you like. I'm not going to stop you from being you. I wanna see the real you and not something you're not. I wanna see the devil that you really are so when the time comes I can end your shit and go bout my life like nothing ever happened other than ruining your life! Keep it up and shut the fuck up. Don't be mad at me for the issues you keep creating on the spot just for attention and sympath...

Fuck You Honestly what more can I say? I'm sorry you thought I was kind and nice but in reality, I'm not. I simply mind my business and only respond if it's worth my time. So you saying I'm ignoring you and being disrespectful is kind of out of pocket when you simply just didn't catch my interest. So with that being said stop blowing up my phone, and get a fucking life because I promise you, you don't want me to expose your shit and leak your address. Some of you just need to understand I really don't care as to what you say or do to me but I will remember it and deal with it in my own way with or without your approval. So if your shit gets hacked, leaked, exposed, or fucked basically that's out of my jurisdiction because I told you not to fuck with me and I'm not going to repeat myself just to prove a point. I'll have my point proven within the next day or within a few days depending on the schedule and how upset I am. I'm not the type to le...

Never Meant for This to Happen I swear it gets worse by the day knowing this life I'm living is a lie and nobody even knows it. I can never come to reality as to what I want in my life and who I want in my life. I like being me and doing what I like but when it comes to talking to those who are close to me I freeze up on topics such as seeing someone or even mentioning someone to them. I guess there's just too much stress and anxiety in my life right now for me to accept the fact that I like what I like and can't help it. I don't know why but I feel comfortable with doing the things that I'm doing it's just I know people around me are going to have a problem with it and I don't think I'm ready for them to leave my life over something that should be normal but apparently isn't right now. Maybe if I just numb all the thoughts and feelings things will be okay but then I'll never understand how to truly feel about people or certain things that happen...

I Stopped Caring I swear it feels like no matter who I talk to or hang out with something fucked up always happens. I don't know if it's because I'm speaking facts and no longer sugar coating shit or what. But it's like people are staying and going but I wish they would just pick one and stay with that choice. Tired of meeting people from my past! Why are you coming back like I owe you validation or some shit? I told you how I felt and what it was I was thinking about and you chose to leave so why are you coming back like I've changed my mind from my previous statement? That's not how I work/do things. I'm sorry but I wasn't raised on to say apologies or anything dealing with taking shit back on what I said. That's why it takes me forever to say what's on my mind because I know if I say the shit that's on my mind theirs no turning back. So I tend to just sit back and watch while processing everything that's happening instead of just sayin...

Fuck the System This post is about to be offensive to anyone that's a racist or doesn't approve of BLACK LIVES MATTER & think COP/PIGS can get AWAY WITH MURDER. So with that being said, I suggest you get off my site. I'm going to go ahead and start with the people that think killing / murdering an innocent black man over a forged check is okay and don't care to see any kind of problem with that. Because it kind of makes me wonder if you have a mental illness or if you just don't care about people unless they're matching with your "COLOR" of race.  You dumb fucking pieces of shit are "SUPPOSED" to make communities we live in "SAFE" but instead you make it feel like we're your prisoners. Can you see and comprehend the problem that I have with this shit or are you so one-sided you only choose to see and hear what you want on your own time? If that's the case let me know so I can get the fuck out of your way so I do...

I Quit For those trying to find my social media accounts don't bother. I deleted all things relating to social media and I also deleted a lot of unnecessary contacts off my phone and only receiving calls from contacts only. I've made the decision to just go and be a ghost online meaning if you Google me there will be zero results of me. I'm tired of always having people telling me what I can and can't post on social media and just other things that are just toxic to me that I can't deal with. I'm removing myself from everyone that I once knew and had some sort of connection with other than family members. I will no longer be answering any calls from people from my past or anyone that's basically not a family member of mine or co-worker. I just really need to distance myself from people and focus on myself and making money right now. I'm getting bored of these games that people keep trying to invite me into and thinking it's going to matter to m...