Mak

I Need to Know I know there’s beauty in the silence that you keep. But sometimes I wish there was a way to let you speak your mind without thinking I’ll hate you for it! I can see it in your eyes that you have a deeper meaning in the things you do and say. But yet you shy away from me thinking I’ll be like the rest when that’s far from it! I just don’t know where to start when it comes to you! I fell for you harder than anyone I’ve ever met and now all I can do is hope and pray you felt the same way when we locked eyes with one another! But I’m far from perfect and I know there are things I need to work on but someone like you who came in on a full moon makes me think this is worth the wait! I wanna get to know you and see what you’re all about if you would just give me the chance!  You seem to have lived a different life before coming to me and I just wanna know what it was like! Did it make you stronger than you were before or did it break you and now you’re this person wh...

Should Have Just Kept My Head Down Hey, I know this might sound crazy but I couldn’t help but notice you across the room and I’m sitting here thinking bout how crazy it would be if you caught me glancing at you and I just got up and introduced myself to you and we hit off just like that. But this ain’t the movies so none of that would really work but hey here we are still going back and forth with the eye contact with one another hoping something would happen! But all we can do for now is just be in our thoughts trying to figure out what's so eye-catching about you and me that we can just sit here in silence looking at one another as if we’ve done this all before! There’s just something bout your eyes that got me hooked and now I’m thinking of getting your name!  But I can’t make it too obvious but at the same time, I wanna make a move! This shit sounds so lame but maybe this is the start of something new! Who knows! I know everything happens for a reason but with my luck, this is ...

Sorry for Loving You Like That So I guess you were right about me not being able to love anyone. So you can come take this heart and do as you please with it because I'm clearly never going to go out of my way and use this shit anymore. So come meet me in the back and take it from me. This shit is pure useless and I'm tired of feeling things when I simply just wanna be free and I can't be that when I've got a rush of emotions flowing through my system all because I found an interest in someone. I just feel like I could be doing so much more if I didn't have to live with this heart that I was given. I get it I'm not the best when it comes to showing my feelings but when I do I go all out and make sure that person is well taken care of and loved to the fullest. But then I end up getting hurt after I use it and I'm just tired of feeling this hurt and pain caused by others. When I was simply just trying my best to give it my all with them. I don't know I...

Honestly,  It's a Shame... I didn't understand it at the time as to what you meant by the words you said but now that I'm looking back at it all. I can see that it would always be just something temporary and the memories I made with you would just stay as memories and nothing more. So tell me why I'm stuck hoping things could be different when it was just a temporary thing from the start. I wish I could have seen this coming but I tend to fall head-first into the deep end causing me to only see the good in that one person and nothing else. I wish I could have told you how you made me really feel but instead, I got caught up in living in the moment with you thinking I had found the one who could be all I needed in life. But I guess life just has a different path for me but I'm too blind to see it. I tried to see the good in you but I guess you were only focusing on the bad with me and that's the part that hurts like hell to know. I did all could to make you happ...

I Just Find It Weird Look I’m not gonna sit here and act like I want them back! I thought about taking them back but what good would that do for me? I don’t even eat my leftovers! So honestly it would just be disrespectful to myself if I reached out and tried to make things right when they’d be better off finding someone new! So go shoot your shot with them if you think they’re the one and leave me out of it! I don’t know why you would think I’d have a problem with them being with you rather than me when I already had them and it just simply wasn’t worth my time! But hey if you want them go get them! I don’t care! Just don’t come crying to me telling me bout this and that when I tried to warn you!  I'm trying my best to be happy for you and your doings but at the same time you be on some thin lines with me and this is one of them but who am I to tell someone no if they think going after someone I've dealt with will make them happy? Like the only thing for me to do is just sit b...

Don't Know, Don't Care Type of Shit My heart is still intact it’s just missing a piece! So here I am asking if you’d be the one to fill in the missing piece or will you be the one to break it all apart! You make me feel some type of way but then again I know you’ll be the one to break my heart to no return if I continue to go on like this! I want to be straightforward with you just not to the point where it feels like I’m attacking you! I want you to be mine but I can’t go through the pain of knowing I’ll end up losing you! So can we just test the waters and see what happens! I’m most likely to drown in the deep end but if we stick to the shoreline and just catch a vibe we should be good! I just don’t wanna rush into anything because of the shit I’m trying to process and figure out! It’s just when I look at you I feel like everything is good and well and I can just be free to be myself with you with no questions asked! But if I end up doing too much then let me know and I’ll ad...

Feelings Were Right, But the Timing Wasn't Hey, I read your text and I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at myself for being clingy. I don't know why or how I was being clingy but I guess I'll go and work on not being so attached and clingy to someone. I'll stand clear and not talk unless spoken to or asked a question. I'll stop putting in the effort to make someone smile and stop asking about how they're feeling and how their day was and if they need anything. I'll stop caring and let them feel like someone I'm annoyed with. I'll do all the opposites of what's right and maybe then I'll stop being looked at as clingy. I'll do my best to stop reaching out and checking up on them. I'll ignore all the physical touch and lovey-dovey shit because clearly, they hate that. I'll ignore their text and make it seem like I'm busy when I'm really not. I'll basically treat them as nothing and maybe then they'll see me for somet...

Fell in Love with the Pain Hey sorry I missed your call. I wasn’t sure what more there could have been said other than an I miss you! But I know deep down inside my heart I can’t say that because the feeling won’t be mutual and I can’t tell someone I miss them when they’re the one still unsure how to feel about me! So I let it ring and told my friend that you were the one who got away even though I somehow wanted us to work!  I guess part of me is done trying to make my existence known to you! Because clearly, I’ll never cross your mind like how you do to mine. I get that it’s only been a few days but god damn this feeling that I’m having is so much stronger than anything I’ve ever felt before and I know that I can’t do anything with it but at the same time I’d like to understand what it was that I was doing wrong for you to get up and leave the way that you did!  I know things tend to happen for a reason but my reasons for being with you were always pure and genuine. I might ...

Should've Never Let You Go I know this isn’t right but I just gotta get it out because I can’t seem to focus on anything right now due to you still being stuck on my mind! Like I don’t mind it but it at the same time it’s not good for me either! It’s just one of those things my mind is trying to either let go or somehow think of a way to keep you around / make amends for what had happened and move on from it knowing there will never be another day where we’re together / next to one another and as much as I want us to be together life just seems to have something else planned! So I apologize for how I’m acting and how things have been going on between me and everyone else around me! It’s hard trying to put a smile on my face when in reality I just wanna cry and wish everything was back to how it was! But knowing time it never goes back! I just have to move on and learn from my past even though this time it wasn’t on me but yet it still hurts knowing there was nothing I could / let a...

Maybe One Day You'll Remember Me Again … I should’ve listened to my heart before thinking someone like you would ever be good for me! I guess I was too caught up in the feeling of being in love only to realize my love would never be enough to keep you around! I wish I could have faced the truth but instead, I let my emotions get the best of me and was blindsided by the truth which was you leaving me alone by simply just walking out of my life as if I was holding the door open when in reality I just gave you the key because I guess I wanted to trust you to do the right thing! But I was wrong in all sense of direction and it’s my fault for trying to make something out of nothing at first glance! How fucking dumb must I be for me to go out of my way to treat someone so right and so well just to be left to feel like everything I was trying to do was never good enough for someone like you! It fucking hurts being called all those things just to find out you were going to leave me in a fe...

Can't Let Go of The Feeling I'd hate to be like this but it's the only way to fully let it go. I know it's not my fault or anything. But the feeling you gave me was like no other and now that you're gone it's all I'm stuck with trying to fight it off only to think of you every time. I'm getting sadder and sadder by the day of not talking with you and I know I shouldn't, but it's how things are for me right now. I'm trying so hard to distract myself with the things I like to do but it's just not working because every time I'm out I'm thinking of you and hoping that you're doing well even though it's not my place to do anymore. I just wish I knew what happened to make you pull away from me. I thought we'd be good together but I guess your feelings just didn't match up to mine and I feel like it's my fault because I've never been the type to do well with showing feelings. I feel like you were one in a million ...