Mak

Angel in Disguise I could see it in your eyes that the things you were telling me had a deeper meaning than you were leading on with. So either you’ve been through this all before or you’ve been hurt by someone else who never saw the beauty in you! So you come across a path that led to me only to realize there’s no beauty when it comes to dealing with me! There’s only pain and death when dealing with me! So for you come my way thinking you’ll find what you’re looking for is concerning! I’d ask you if you’re okay but by the looks of your eyes and the beating of your heart I’d say you’re pretty well off for what you got going on! But it still doesn’t beg the question of why you chose to approach me out of all the people who were next to me! I get I’m very much out of the way and only in the known when I need to be! But for someone like you to just walk up to me and start asking bout my life and doings is a bit too much for me! I feel like it’s a setup only to look you in the eyes and see...

What's Right, What's Wrong Pt. 2 My heart and mind were never in sync when you were away! My mind told me one thing while my heart screamed for the other and it was just too much to keep up with! I tried to hear out every possible solution to what could have gone right and wrong but it wasn’t good enough because I felt as if I wasn’t good enough! So I cried in the dark and smiled in the light! There was never a confusion on those two and when they should be seen! It was like a set time and doing! Cry in the dark to avoid the questions and smile during the day to make people think I was fine and well! But fucking hell trying to smile through all the pain and suffering killed me more than the actual thought of you leaving! It’s just sad thinking how someone like you could ever understand a guy like me knowing I’ve been broken to pieces and had to fix myself all on my own just to feel empty and unloved by everyone around me! But you came in and showed me what I’m capable of and br...

Left Me to Drown in a Bed Full of Lies It’s crazy how someone could just leave someone to fend for themselves at such a young age! You knew I wasn’t ready for what you were putting me through but you went and did it anyways! I begged and cried out to you so you would stop but you didn’t seem to care about the pain I was letting out! So you just pushed me in and expected me to make it out alive when in reality I was drowning without making a sound or causing a scene! I watched you stand over me as I was falling hoping it was all a dream but when I realized it wasn’t it was all too late! I sank to the bottom thinking about all the things I did wrong and ended up hating myself more than I ever had at the time! I tried to make my life worth living but you clearly had other plans for me and my life that seeing me be happy killed you deep inside that you had to go out of your way and try to drown me with all the pain and hatred that your life had caused prior to me meeting you! So tell me ho...

It's 11:11 So Here's My Wish You'll probably never see me ever again but I just need you to know that I made a wish and it was for you to live a long-lasting life hoping everything would go your way. I didn't mean to come into your life that random Wednesday afternoon and ruin your perception of me. I guess I was scared to talk to you knowing that you were everything I needed at the time. So forgive me for what I'm bout to say in this post. It was never fully my intention to lead you on or make you feel unwanted. I was just lost in time thinking about you only to realize me not doing anything about it is what drove us apart. I should've stayed and asked you for your number but I just laughed it off and walked away knowing me and you would be one hell of a couple only problem was I wasn't ready for someone like you. I felt as if I had stuck to my heart and asked you out it would have only hurt you in the process. I wasn't sure if my doings at the time wer...

Only Cared to Love the Ones Who Left I guess it’s pretty fucked up for me to go and write about this sort of thing but if it’s true then what’s the harm in it? I don’t care for the ones who tend to stay it’s always the ones who leave without a trace! Makes me wonder what their deal was for coming into my life and then dipping out of the blue! It’s like a drug I can’t sustain! I’m always finding a way to fall in love with someone new just for them to ruin me in the end! But I guess it’s just the thought of getting them to be with me that made it worth my wild! It’s easy for me to get so caught up with someone only to get bored with them because I only see the good in them so their flaws never seem to be a problem for me until it’s too late! I wish I could love the ones who stay but I see no point in that when there’s nothing really special about them in my eyes! My feelings only get stronger for someone when they leave and tell me it’s for the best! I get it, it's pretty fucked up h...

You Say... Please don't front when I tell you that I'm not looking for you or anything you have to offer. You did the thing I asked you not to and now you're stuck trying to find a way to explain to me why you did it as if I'll sit here and listen to your excuse. You got me so fucked up right now that I told you this shit won't end the way you wanted it to. So for you to do it anyways just proved my point all along. You couldn't be trusted and as much as I tried to see the best in you it just simply wasn't good enough. You went and treated me the way you wanted with no second thought only to find out I'm much better off being on my own anyway. So now you're thinking of a way to make yourself relevant to my life again knowing damn well you're out of sight and out of mind and no longer a priority of mine. So for you to keep reaching out and following me like a lost dog is beyond my comprehension. I gave you all the love and care that I had to give ...

I'm No Longer Yours to Keep You called me yours for the first time in a long time but I’ve seen where this leads all before! So if I may I’d appreciate it if you took the baby back and told me the truth about how I’m not really yours! Because of how you treated me there’s no way you were ever really mine to have and I wasn’t yours to keep! So please don’t play these mind games when we both know how this ends! It’s not fair that you go out of your way to keep me in the unknown when everyone else around you has all the answers to what’s happening and I’m stuck deep in thought asking myself what’s the point of all of this and coming out empty-handed! Because let’s be honest! There’s no point in me trying anymore when you’re letting go of me but you just don’t want it to be known even though I’ve got you all figured out knowing if I stay with you you’ll only break me from the inside out and I’m not about that! So please don’t come looking for me when I end up walking away from you! I c...

Lie to Me Once More... Can I go ahead and ask you one more favor even if that favor seems stupid to where it’ll make you do a double take? I need you to lie to me about the way you really feel and tell me how you hate me to where you wish I never existed in your life so we can both be better off with our own doings and leave each other be?! I can’t help but see you in a different light every time I look at you and it’s killing me knowing how badly I fucked up with you! I tried to convince myself to stay and fix the things I broke but in the end, there was nothing more I could do because the damage we both caused was too far gone to be put back together! The door remains unlocked and opened for the both of us but by the looks of it, there’s no point in going through it! You tell me that you need me but then push me out the way when I get too close and I’m stuck asking myself what was that for only to realize you don’t like the feeling of me being close to you because of all the trauma y...

I Saw You Twice Just to Never See You Again! Hey, I’m sorry if I made you sick to your stomach for thinking we could be something more! But I guess your texts and calls meant otherwise! I felt like I knew everything you had to offer from the moment I laid my eyes on you but then you went and left which left me all confused and lost as to what it could have meant! But I guess it’s my fault for letting you walk alone to clear your head and leaving me to cry my heart out that night!  Everything I felt and knew about you seemed to have just been fading right before my eyes and as much as I tried to capture and save every memory and moment it was all too late! It felt like every promise that we had made to one another was simply being broken and lost to where everything around me just started to not make sense anymore! I tried to fight off the feeling of losing you but nothing seemed to work! So I sat back hoping that you’d come back through the door you left! But nothing happened! So I...

He Looks Better with You You’ll probably hate me for saying all the things I’m about to say but what’s the point of hiding it anymore when it’s clear I’m no longer what you need?! I just don’t see the point of holding on when it hurt like hell finding myself and what I want in life. I tried to get you to listen but you just went and did what you did best which was disregarding every word I said and went about your day! Which is fine, but I didn’t think you going out of your way and reaching out to him would have even crossed your mind! But I guess I was right for thinking you’re just like everybody else in this world! Always looking for the next best thing instead of sitting down and just talking it out and finding a way to resolve the situation! But who am I kidding?! I’m living in a generation full of fools and cold-hearted fuckers that nobody seems to care to understand what’s right and what’s wrong when in it comes to being in a serious relationship with someone! You go and tell me...

I Didn't Mean to Waste Your Time! I get that I will never change my habits when it comes to you so just let me know how you want me to be and I’ll be just that! Just don’t leave me stranded out here on my own just to watch me fall from a distance! Got me calling your phone thinking you’ll pick up but it’s just a dial tone on the other end! So how are you gonna tell me to call you when your phone isn't even on?  Got me so confused as to what you even meant by that! So now I’m stuck on the corner of your street trying to get a hold of you just to see you with some other guy! Got me thinking it was just a one-time thing but when I go asking bout the guy you were with people tell me he’s not new and you’ve been with him since before my existence in your life! So now that I have this info I can go ahead and leave you to it! Cause I’m not the one to get between someone else’s relationship when you seem happier without me! So tell me how you planned on telling me your deepest secrets ...