Mak

Why Do You Lie to Me Not trying to be that guy but this shit gotta stop. We talk and things are good only to run shit back and realize it was all a lie. I text you back only to realize the shit I'm bout to ask makes me look like I'm asking something stupid when it's just something I need to know about so I'm not stuck having to wonder about it all day and night. It's upsetting having to sit in front of you knowing there's something that needs to be asked only to hold it in and just forget all about it so I don't upset you. It's not fair having to know something that you think I don't know about. It makes me wonder if anything that you ever told was ever true or if it was all just for show so I would stay by your side. The things you do are so well hidden it's hard to tell if it's even worth trying to find out the things you do. I want to be part of your world but when you go and shut me out it's hard to tell if you and I are even meant to...

Never Knew a Minor Change Would Hurt This Bad I get we didn't know each other very long but the thought of you leaving and doing your own things hurt like hell. I thought of all the things we did only to realize it would all stop and nothing more would come out of us. The blame game was all too real to let anything else slide that we just lost control in the process and as much as I tried to hold on to the feelings we had they were just gone. I did all I could to save myself from the pain you brought my way only to realize that pain was all I was missing. All we ever did was go back and forth on letting one another go only to see what we were missing and go back and forth with the feelings only to come back and figure shit out only to repeat the cycle once more and even though that shit hurt like hell. It was worth it in the end. I used to call you day and night to make sure you were safe and well only to hear your voice telling me how much you hate the shit they do to you. So I co...

You're All I See When I Close My Eyes I guess this is where things start making sense since you're the talk of the town when it comes to me now. This is kind of crazy because we don't even really do much but cross paths with one another every few weeks only to give each other the side eye wishing things could be different between us. But instead, we keep pushing ourselves deeper and deeper into a hole that'll soon be filled with the things we never said to one another. I looked your way only to think about how things should be between us two but then my friends told me that you're no good for me only to go find out for myself to see how bad you really are towards me. I predicted that it was all just lies to keep me away from you but once I reached out to you and got a taste of what you were all about I could see it in your eyes that the things they were saying and warning me about were all true and it hurts thinking that I told myself they were all lies to begin wit...

I Miss the Old You You know where this is going so why act like you don’t understand the shit I explained to you over the phone? You keep trying to act as if it’s nothing when it’s something that matters to me the most! You keep pretending as if things are good between us two but then again you’re going behind my back to do some slick shit and then proceed to go off on me as if I’m in the wrong when I ask you about your whereabouts!! Which is fine if that’s what makes you feel secure and good about yourself but don’t expect me to sit here and make it seem like what you’re doing will make me stay! You wanna keep me around only to break me when I’m just trying to get through to you! I have a lot of love for you but sitting here thinking bout the damage and the cost it’s going to take to repair it’s making me feel like I should love you less and move on with my own doings from you! You keep asking what it is I wanna do only to figure out how to come to my senses and tell you nothing when ...

I Didn't Mean to Cry When Talking with You Honestly, I don’t even know what caused me to feel the things I felt when it came to you! I was chilling vibing having a good time only to look your way and feel some type of way not knowing how to make those feelings come to light! I kept second-guessing my doings only to start making my point across to you while having tears come down my face not knowing what the hell just happened! I was so confused as to what even just happened that I felt so bad for everyone in that room! I walked out to go wash off the tears coming down my face only to come back feeling even sadder because what the actual fuck was that?! I’ve never done this before and knowing this is how it went down was so confusing to me! I wanted to leave and forget about it ever happening but I stayed and tried to keep my head held high but the tears kept falling down and then I started to feel the anxiety coming in and that’s when I knew I had to go!! I never really knew what t...

Lately, I've Been Thinking About... You & the Things I Regret! I know me being gone for 11 years has caused you more pain than I’ll ever know but being away from you this long was never my intention. I thought maybe it would have just been a few weeks to a month! I never expected it to be 11 years! But yet here we are 11 years apart thinking we were so perfect together only to realize there will never be a love like the one we shared! Everything just flowed so effortlessly that there was no need to think about the things we did and said! I miss everything about you even the small things about you! I never knew missing someone over the smallest things could put me in such a feeling I can’t explain!  The love we shared was unlike anything I’ve ever felt and for it to just end the way it did hurt like hell knowing it was my fault for letting you walk away! I thought if I ran and flew to you and asked for your hand again you would have seen how much you meant to me and how much I w...

I Could See It In Your Eyes No matter how many times I try to avoid the lies in your eyes I get a feeling of being something more than us just being friends. The way your eyes lock on me makes me question our existence as if what we have should be more only to realize it'll never work how we want it to. I can tell by the nightfall that it's all just an act and that in the morning you'll have no memory of feeling what you did for me. It's not like I want to feel these things when it comes to you it's just I know what will happen if we go down the path of catching feelings for one another. I know the feeling isn't the best feeling at times but sometimes it's all I need to feel and know when it comes to you. There's so much more to what you're leading on with and it makes me question if what we have is a lie or if we're meant to be only to come back to realize leaving one alone is what was best. I can't tell when it comes to those eyes gazing my...

Shit Hasn't Been the Same Since You Left I guess I can go ahead and get this shit out there and be done with the thought of knowing it was my fault and there was nothing I could do to make it right!  We both knew where this path would have led us if we had made it our goal to walk down it! Every piece of my heart would shatter and fall apart with every step we took knowing there was no looking back at the life we once knew! I could have gone out of my way and put all of the shattered pieces into your hands but then again those pieces would have brought you back to me one day knowing what we had was real and worth everything we had lost! I don’t know why but the timing was never right and as much as we tried to make it seem like the timing was on our side and the things we shared were meant for just the two of us the stars had other plans for us! We pushed and shoved everyone out of the way just to get a glimpse of one another only to be pushed further and further away from one anot...

I Tried to Warn You... But You Didn't Care to Listen I know this isn’t the time but you were always on my mind even on the days you were going off and throwing shit my way knowing it had nothing to do with me! I went back to the places I had no business being in because you were going off causing me more harm than good! As much as I would try and take it in part of me felt lost trying to figure out why you were doing all these things knowing I’d always be there for you! You didn’t seem to understand your problems were my problems but you kept going out of your way and making it seem like you had to do it on your own when I’m always right next to you! Even on the days I’m going through personal shit! You were coming at me sideways and telling me I was never there for you made me realize you didn’t mean it and you were just going off on the anger you felt so I just stood there thinking of what more I could do but before my mind could think of anything my arms were wrapped around you!...

Going Out of Your Way to Fix a Heart You Didn't Break How did we even get to this point that we’re at? It’s like one wrong move only leads to three bad mistakes just to end up back to the start! We keep doing our best to make things work but still get caught up in the lies we once told! It’s not fair for me to be this way towards you when you’re just trying to help me! But I know deep down inside I’m broken and you’re just trying to do your best to help me! But sometimes I wish you didn’t! I sometimes need time to process the pain that I’ve been dealing with and let it be for what it is! It’s not like I’m trying to ignore the pain I brought upon myself but it’s more or less of something that’s not your problem to fix or solve! So if I could just be left alone when things get hard for me that would be great! I’m sorry if what I’m saying might sound like me being an ass but it’s just how shit should be! It’s not your problem so why should you be the one to get involved? I’m sorry it’...

I Didn't Mean to Show You the Pain I Hide From Everyone I know my past mistakes were stupid and uncalled for! But why would you make me sit and endure the pain everyone was making me go through knowing I would react in anger! You made it seem like the things people were yelling at me and then proceeded to break me down piece by piece was a normal thing! I was too afraid to be out and around others, and speaking to others didn’t seem to cross my mind! I ended up shutting down in public so I wouldn’t be noticed and approached! I tried my hardest to forget all the pain and abuse I was experiencing only to now be reminded of everything that went down because of you! I felt alone most of my teenage years just to finally find someone who understands me and appreciates me for me even though my heart is still in pieces! I try my best to look at all the positives when it comes to my life but there's still some nights where I'll break down and feel so lost! I don’t know why I break d...